I've thought about this a little and it seems that I am not able to write here unless things are wrong. I guess this can be considered a sign that they are very well at the moment?
In any case, balance has been restored. I'm in peace with myself once again and as such, I don't feel like I should specifically work on remembering the good things.
kolmapäev, 11. detsember 2013
neljapäev, 5. detsember 2013
Day 2
Yesterday:
1. I met someone new from the web. It wouldn't be that special, if she wasn't.
2. I've worked quite a lot on figuring out what to do about my times of depression. So far the most useful thing has been talking to a person much older than me.
3. I'm writing this post later and can no longer remember enough about yesterday. However, I've put another point into today, so it should be alright.
Today:
1. I almost slept in again, just like yesterday and the day before. However, this time it wasn't really a problem. I got up quickly, but without haste, as it wasn't likely for me to be late.
2. I feel more confident than I have felt for a long time. It's sort of the "destroyer of worlds" mentality.
3. In many lessons I didn't have to do what others did (although I did pay attention). Well, what I did was still quite related to many subjects, so there really was no reason to deny me this.
4. I did some personality tests. I was rated as INTP by www.humanmetrics.com
However, the T part was just 1%, so I'm essentially between INTP and INFP. Look them up if you wish.
1. I met someone new from the web. It wouldn't be that special, if she wasn't.
2. I've worked quite a lot on figuring out what to do about my times of depression. So far the most useful thing has been talking to a person much older than me.
3. I'm writing this post later and can no longer remember enough about yesterday. However, I've put another point into today, so it should be alright.
Today:
1. I almost slept in again, just like yesterday and the day before. However, this time it wasn't really a problem. I got up quickly, but without haste, as it wasn't likely for me to be late.
2. I feel more confident than I have felt for a long time. It's sort of the "destroyer of worlds" mentality.
3. In many lessons I didn't have to do what others did (although I did pay attention). Well, what I did was still quite related to many subjects, so there really was no reason to deny me this.
4. I did some personality tests. I was rated as INTP by www.humanmetrics.com
However, the T part was just 1%, so I'm essentially between INTP and INFP. Look them up if you wish.
teisipäev, 3. detsember 2013
Denial of hardship
One would think that being happy is about doing what you want. In a sense, this is true. However, the real obstacle is... doing what you want. It's not always so easy to get what you wish for.
My current goal is to get happy and remain that way, as long as it doesn't mean blatantly lying to myself.
Good things that have happened today:
1. Talked a lot with Kelly about our relations. It's apparent that we won't be together again any time near, if at all. However, it's still good, because she isn't going anywhere. She still plans to remain my friend and that's what matters more.
2. Got the necessary signatures for my research application. At first one of the teachers was hesitant to sign, as it puts more responsibility on her. However, when I described the fucked up state the the education system is in and that I plan to research alternative ways to teach, then she liked the idea. The look on her face pretty much said: "I want to be a part of this!"
3. I redid the chemistry test, just as the whole class did. Unlike the previous time, I was able to finish it in time and knew pretty much all the answers straight away. This certainly looks like I'll get a good grade and don't have to worry about chemistry for now.
(4). Yesterday I wrote a small text called "Children of the wild". At first I tried to use the snowflake method, but inspiration or something similar carried me away.
However, I still am happy about it, because it was the first time that I was able to write anything considerable without being high on inspiration.
Denial of hardship makes for a strong contestant.
My current goal is to get happy and remain that way, as long as it doesn't mean blatantly lying to myself.
Good things that have happened today:
1. Talked a lot with Kelly about our relations. It's apparent that we won't be together again any time near, if at all. However, it's still good, because she isn't going anywhere. She still plans to remain my friend and that's what matters more.
2. Got the necessary signatures for my research application. At first one of the teachers was hesitant to sign, as it puts more responsibility on her. However, when I described the fucked up state the the education system is in and that I plan to research alternative ways to teach, then she liked the idea. The look on her face pretty much said: "I want to be a part of this!"
3. I redid the chemistry test, just as the whole class did. Unlike the previous time, I was able to finish it in time and knew pretty much all the answers straight away. This certainly looks like I'll get a good grade and don't have to worry about chemistry for now.
(4). Yesterday I wrote a small text called "Children of the wild". At first I tried to use the snowflake method, but inspiration or something similar carried me away.
However, I still am happy about it, because it was the first time that I was able to write anything considerable without being high on inspiration.
Denial of hardship makes for a strong contestant.
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